Tuesday, December 18, 2007 . 5:16 PM
[18 dec 2007]u will always live in my memory...
the last time i cried so hard was 4 months back. on a rainy night. y must every tragedy happen when it is raining?! i thought i could get over this but that time, i heard that song and memories started gushing back to me. i felt as though i was going to suffocate in this kind of circumstances. just after the chorus, tears rolled down my cheek unknowingly. i felt so helpless. the last time i saw u, u were so weak and vulnerable. it is so hard to accept the fact that u have gone in just 1 hour. after that song, i wanted to go to bed but then the memories are playing like a film without sound. all of a sudden, i could not hold it anymore. i sat up and broke down. i just cannot control my tears anymore.
i thought of the time when we first met. then when we got to noe each other so well and how we would stand by each other when we were unhappy. how u can always understand how i feel and manage to cheer me up in wadeva condition. ur big round eyes always seemed to understand my feelings and it can always calm me down. as days, months and years passed. u grew old, fell sick and was not as cheerful as before. it hurts to noe that u cannot even jump up a small step without tripping over. then came the time when u could not eat, drink or move abt. every movement seems to hurt u, which in turn inflicted more pain on us. that was ur last day. our last moments together. im sorry for not being able to help u get rid of those pains and all ur sufferings.
u went to the hospital. not feeling well at all. u left, i went to bed. started crying at the thought that something would happen. i had a bad premonition. but then my sister came in and consoled me. i was starting to feel a little better when that bloody freaking undesirable phone call came. i knew it was over. nth could be done to keep u back. everyone felt as though something in this house was gone forever. no one will be listening to my complains. no one will come to sit by me when i am alone at home and keep me company. no one will ever provide me with such friendship that i will never forget. it is all over.........
haix... u will soon be buried and stay with us forever. at least a part of u will still stay here. i will get over the fact that u are no longer here with me but i will never forget u as a life-long companion, a friend that is always there for me. deep down in my heart, u will always have a place there. a place to keep u warm and cosy, a place without any pains or sufferings.
gd bye my friend... u will never be forgotten... love u forever!!
my beloved dog..
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