"It's not the situation. . . . It's your reaction to the situation." -Robert Conklin

so i guess i shud learn how to react in the right way bah..
10 months is not short, but neither is it long..
it's just another milestone...

sometimes i wonder why i take note of this date so much.. it's just another day to other ppl, so why i shud try to send an sms at 12 sharp, to try and make a card, to plan a surprise, to arrange for a meal...
bcos it's my nature to make sure that each month is celebrated cos i noe how difficult it is to maintain a r/s for a long time?
bcos i dun wanna regret if anything happens that totally destroys my chance of having that memory?
bcos i just want us to spend more time tgt?
or is it simply bcos i think it's sth worth reminiscing?

maybe some other pair wont even care abt it bcos they think it's just another normal day..
but i really dun understand why it's so impt to me.. still trying to figure it out..
every month on this date, i'll feel like it's a birthday of someone impt to me.
it's just this special feeling that makes my heart beat faster, makes me excited, make me feel like nth can go wrong..
cant rly describe how i feel but i just wanna spend my whole day with him, just a peaceful day...

i noe i tend to over react and keep on repeating myself.. but somehow that seems like the only way to spill out my feelings to u..
it's the only way i can put my thought into words..
each time i repeat myself, i have a different meaning behind it.. but sometimes even i myself dunno abt the true meaning..
i admit i have a lot of feelings bottled up inside me but i really really cannot put them into words..
some feelings are simply impossible to put into words.. others are just plainly bcos my vocab bank is not varied enough to express them at the right degree... that's probably the reason why i keep repeating myself..

oh well.. unfortunately, it falls on the ungodly date of promos so yeah... felt kinda lost today...
ate dinner with yiyun-.-" and she was sooo honoured..
lol~
anyway, shall continue to mug hard for promos.. 1 more day..
or rather 8 more days to the (temporary) end..

i'm going to sleep on those pesky thoughts
it's the easiest way to run away from the world for the time being..
when we open our eyes again, we face reality. so sleep is probably the only way of relieving ourselves from those daily tortures, at least momentarily...
GOODNIGHT WORLD~

(ps there's this big crack on my study table.. i think it's going to collapse any moment.. and i'm wondering when we'll be able to tell the whole world abt us...
and erm u may hate me for talking abt this online, but i rly needed a place to talk things out with myself so yeah.. hope u understand and dun get angry with me=X)