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music of the piano
Saturday, February 7, 2009 . 9:51 PM
hanjian won.yuefeng and vanessa won.mandy lost.cilian and songjia lost.the last match and the most crucial match depended on me... myself.. and i...i thought i could do it.. i believe i played as well as i could... considering the pressure and stress level.. not forgetting the fear...but yet, wad was the result? we lost.3-2.my last zonals match in my sec school life.the first time i shout when i got a ball in.the first time i felt so hot playing a game.the first time i wanted so much for my team mates to stand and give me the support for the last ball.maybe i should not have asked them to stand up after alli should not have wasted their energy since i still lost.that last ball...that last minute...that last second...things around me just became so slow and so clear..just like in a drama.it may seem fake. but to me, its 101% real. i experienced it... before i took that strike, i thought "i must get this over!"haix..wad happened? it went down the net... just like i felt as though my efforts went down the drain.the first set, i played in despair. she led by 7-0. didn't noe how to receive that leftie's serve AT ALL.I slowly changed.. but the change came too slow.haix..sry for disppointing all of u once again.. i noe u all had high hopes esp when we were leading 2-0 by game points.its the last year..no more chance nxt yr bcos even hanjian cant play nxt yr either.such high chances yet it slipped thru our hands.. just flew away...last yr, this time, we lost to fuhua 3-2. our hearts crackedthis yr, this time, we lost to RV 3-2 again.. our hearts are smashed...in fact, it hurts even more.i would say everyone played well except for me. to u guys, maybe i played as per normal.but to me, it sucks.. it just sucks.. simply cos i didn't win.i promise i will become strong again.. but please give me some time..give me time to fix this broken heart.p.s. i promised not to cry.. but it just came. i admit, im weak. truly sorry...i wanted so much to hear some words of encouragement from u.. valentine's day is coming. will i ever hear from u again?!