music of the piano
Wednesday, November 21, 2007 . 5:02 PM
[21 nov 2007]
bad things are happening...is it so difficult to maintain a gd frenship without having bad impression of one another? seems very difficult. is it true that ppl will show their true colours after spending time with her? WAD IN THE WORLD IS GOING ON?!?!
tournament is coming closer and closer yet i still have so many things to learn and do and most importantly, train with u! when we were at sunsports and coach mentioned us being together as a pair of doubles, i thought there was no harm trying. wad i was worried abt at that time was if i could work well with u and if our pairing up can really benefit the team.
when we just started out, i thought "lets work hard and try to get that one point this time round..." i did not noe it could be that hard. now we are lyk playing as individuals instead of doubles. whose fault is it? mine? yours? ours?! wad shud we do? Mr chua is right. we shud not talk bad abt each other behind.i admit that i did gossip abt u but i am sure u did it too rite? when mr chua told me abt it, i told myself that i shud stop doing that. i dun want this pair of doubles to be separated at this crucial point of time.
i am sure u noe that coach and mr chua has high expectations on us. if we do not work hard, not only to improve our skills but oso our relationship, i dun think we can go far. not even until tournament. i noe it is hard to talk face to face. wanna write a letter?!? wad if u get angry? weren't that be worse? i am not gd at talking as well. i cant stand talking face to face in this kind of circumstances. u will probably see me walking away. this time, i dun mind trying to thrash things out. everyone is right. they saw sth that we did not and i feel that it is time we did. now i have seen our problem. have u? are u willing to face both mine and ur weaknesses now? are we able to make use of both our strengths to win points? are we able to overlook the weaknesses in our attitude? WAD CAN WE EXACTLY DO???
it just seems so difficult. if i write a letter, u will probably burst out in flames. if we talk face to face, we might not be able to take it. if we just leave it lying, we will be letting the whole team, mr chua, coach and the school down. can we take it? when can we start acting lyk a real pair of doubles? i think its time for me to noe my weaknesses and change. its time for you too. are u willing to do it for the sake of the team? are u willing to do it for the upcoming tournament? can u bear to forgo the opportunity and chance? can u understand the feeling of having the chance fly away in front of u and yet u cannot catch it? i dun think it will be very nice. i believe that if we put in the effort to improve on both our weaknesses and strengths now, we will not regret it at the end of this journey that both of us have committed ourselves to.
i just hope that i can overcome the pressure of having to talk to someone face to face like that someday... can someone tell me wad to do?!?! *mixed feelings*
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